I am Thine, O Lord, I have heard Thy voice, And it told Thy love to me; But I long to rise in the arms of faith, And be closer drawn to Thee.
Draw me nearer, nearer blessed Lord, To the cross where Thou hast died; Draw me nearer, nearer, nearer blessed Lord, To Thy precious, bleeding side.
Consecrate me now to Thy service, Lord, By the pow’r of grace divine; Let my soul look up with a steadfast hope, And my will be lost in Thine.
A question was posed to me this past week, “When is the silence in your life?” With toddlers, a full calendar, and a pending move, the question didn’t have an easy answer.
So I set out to find silence in my chaos.
For a few days I have gotten up before everyone is awake, made myself a cup of tea and found a comfortable, warm place to sit. I sip my tea and repeat a simple prayer over and over. I find that if I try to state everything in words that the prayer becomes more about my words than being in God’s presence. So I repeat something like “peace, you are peace, O God.” or “call me to your service, Lord.” or “there is nothing to do, help me simply be in your presence.”
This morning, after a rough night of sleep (it is snoring season), I could have easily hit the snooze and gone back to bed. (Though I do reserve the right to a nap later in the day.) I got up and sat. The hymn above was so present, so loud, so piercing in my head that I couldn’t help but make that my prayer this morning. “Draw me nearer….”
There are a lot of things I could be doing right now – brainstorming stewardship campaign ideas, doing the dishes, packing more boxes, cleaning or organizing something. But I have found that there is exponentially more to be found with using this silence to be in God’s presence. I don’t claim to do this practice perfectly, but it is a challenge to my go-go-go mentality, a breath of fresh air to my loud life, and life-giving water to my spiritual roots that I have come to enjoy it.
I encourage you in the next two weeks, weeks that are so full of spiritual practices at the church, to find your own spiritual practice. Find one where you are not in charge, find silence in your day, find a place where you can simply be a child of God.
Blessings on this early morning.
“And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” – Phillipians 4:7 NIV